My worst day as a Mum…

Today was my worst day as a Mum and as I sit here eating my feelings (double chocolate cake from Patisserie Valerie no less…!) I am only just starting to let go of the stress & tension that I have carried with me all day. We are heading into a new adventure as a family, travelling the country on tour with a musical in a different venue every week. I didn’t go into this lightly; I knew it would be challenging to be away from home but I thought I might get a few more weeks in before the meltdowns began.

We started with a 6am wakeup call from a very excited Isla… we did our best to convince her to make it to her usual 7am but not quite… a short first nap and then we headed down to Manchester’s aquatics centre to check out the baby pool. A sweltering walk, baby wearing in the heat, all the way there only to discover the baby pool was closed but ‘the guy who updates the website isn’t in today…’. Good. Back we go. I got glass in my foot… And on it went…

Do you ever have those days where every little thing seems to go against you? Heavy doors slamming on you – making it impossible to get the pram inside, a screaming baby that keeps trying to pull your hair or pinch you no matter what you do to soothe them, a phone dying just as you need the maps the most – leaving you to ask strangers who all recommend you go in opposite directions… Yup. Now you see why I need the cake.

But what do you do when this tiny person relies on you to be an all knowing oasis of calm and comfort at every moment of the day? It’s taken me nearly a year to say, you know what… it’s ok. Sometimes you lose your temper in a public shopping centre when they bite you and make you bleed. Sometimes you just have to let them cry because you wouldn’t let them steal from the LEGO shop. Sometimes you can’t be the perfect mother. It’s taken me nearly a year to realise that’s just not a thing. But we survived. We made it back to the flat that I really can not find for the life of me no matter how many times I come here. We had dinner with no tantrums, a relatively calm bath & only a few tears at bedtime.

As she finally relaxed into my arms and gave up the fight she’d been battling all day, I told her how much I love her. Again and again. Almost as a, ‘Sorry I wasn’t good enough today’. But tomorrow is a new day & we’ll start again. I’ll try to be more patient, properly prepared, better organised… the list goes on.  For me that’s what being a Mother is; finding the strength when you thought you had no more to give.

For tonight I’m going to take a deep breath, which may well be my first of the day & keep telling myself ‘It’s ok’, while I resist the urge to google how many calories were in that giant piece of cake…

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Isla’s First Trip to the Beach

I couldn’t resist sharing a few of these with you! We took the opportunity to head down to Omaha Beach while visiting some friends in France. It was Isla’s first time on the beach and it was such a beautiful thing to witness.

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Both Nanny & I forgot the towels so we were just going to let Isla have a little paddle and go. Isla had other ideas. She instantly fell in love & wanted to go for a swim!

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We played in the shallow waves for as long as I could convince her to stay, but she kept trying to make a break for deeper waters!

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Isla would have stayed all day if we had let her, but without a sunshade or towels we had to cut the visit short!

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Eventually we gave in and stripped off her jeans to go for a deeper paddle before giving in completely and putting her in her totsbots swim nappy & swimsuit!

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The difference a filter makes… Haha! It actually looked like the final picture but I couldn’t resist a moodier edit on the shots from my camera!

I can’t wait till next time & I’ve promised Isla that we will come prepared for a whole day of splashing & sandcastles!

 

Mothers Day Gift Guide

This year will be my first year as a Mummy on mother’s day & I’m looking forward to celebrating with a family lunch with all the Grandma’s and my beautiful Isla. I thought I’d give you a little inspiration incase you were planning on showing your love with gorgeous gifts as well as cuddles, kisses & homemade cards!

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1. The White Company – Deep Waistband Pull-Ons – Dark Charcoal Marl – £45

As a new Mum it’s unbelievably difficult to actually get dressed every day, so these are the perfect, super soft, comfy trousers that you can get away with wearing & people won’t judge you… Just grab the dry shampoo & go!

2. Prestat – Pink Marc de Champagne Truffle 175g – £12.50

These truffles are so perfect you won’t be able to resist! Prestat chocolates have been enjoyed by Queens, Princesses & Presidents – so why not add your Mum to that distinguished company!

3. Tiba + Marl – Elwood Changing Backpack – £120

Once you’ve had a baby your baby bag basically becomes your handbag for the next few years & for the most part that means style goes out the window… But not anymore! I am obsessed with these backpacks – it is top of my Birthday list! (Am I too old to still have a Birthday list…?) I do so much baby wearing & and having a backpack instead of over the shoulder would make a huge difference plus this one comes with a laptop sleeve, bottle insulator & enough space to carry the millions of things you need to survive a day out of the house with baby!

4. Laura Lee – Medium 9ct Rose Gold Initial Coin Necklace – £295.00

I’ve loved Laura Lee jewellery for years & have a few of their pieces already. I’ve been thinking for a while how much I’d love a necklace with Isla’s initial on it & I immediately thought of the delicate rose gold coin necklace. So chic and simple!

5. DIPTYQUE Candle – £40

Always a perfect gift. Luxurious & a great way to spoil someone special!

6. Bloom & Wild Flower Subscription – From £50 for 3 months

Why give her just one bunch of flowers when you can surprise her with 3? It’s such a great idea as she doesn’t even need to be in when they are delivered as they can be posted through the letter box. They even come with instructions for how best to arrange them!

7. Liberty – Theodora Roberts Revival Radio – £225.00

Barney got me a Roberts radio for Christmas a few years ago as the most beautiful surprise & we now have it on in the kitchen everyday. It makes such a nice change to fill your home with music instead of the noise of the TV! This beautiful Radio is covered in the iconic Liberty print which I really just can’t get enough of!

8.Olympus PEN Digital Camera – E-PL7 – Was £399, Now £299 in Jessops

Capturing memories is one of my greatest joys as a mum & having the perfect tool to do that is essential. This stunning little compact looks incredible but is also so easy to use to achieve amazing results. The E-PL7 features a flip & tilt 1.04M dot touchscreen LCD & even has built-in Wi-fi which lets you instantly share and post your images online via your smartphone. It has a continuous shooting option of up to 8 frames per second, so you’ll never miss a shot & features 14 Art Filters for adding creativity to stills & movies.

9. Kate Spade New York Stationary Collection – Pictured: Notebook – £22 & Thermal Mug – £16

I have accrued quite the Kate Spade handbag collection & now they have brought out a stationary line I know I won’t be able to resist. They make the perfect gifts as everything is cute & quirky, with slogans like ‘Eat Cake for Breakfast’ – I think every woman should have a little of that in her life! 

 

Those are my top picks for store bought gifts – but breakfast in bed, coupons for cuddles & special art work ready for framing are also right up there with the best things a Mum could receive! Having a baby of your own really makes you understand just how much your parents did for you. I’m going to be thanking my Mum, not just on Mothers Day but every day for putting up with all the tantrums & the sleepless nights! Along with the million other things she did for me & continues to do!

How will you be celebrating the wonderful Mumma’s in your life? Share your pictures with me on Instagram @AdventureswithIslaBlog or on Facebook!